Because this is my music blog, I will be as messy or emotional as I want to be, and this the healthy outlet I am trying to choose. You have been warned. This story expressed via music is not shiny or happy. Channeling pain through art is therapeutic which is why there are historically so many songs about love and heartbreak. Artists often say things better than we know the words for or didn't know we needed to hear. I don't feel ashamed, guilty, or embarrassed because I have experienced something painful. I know what I gave was genuine and loving. Receipts don't lie, and I can back it up. Ignoring any upset and hurt feelings because I want to seem unaffected or okay would be a facade. Avoiding complicated feelings will only make the healing process worse. I want to process and get through it as soon as possible. In order to get through it, I must grow through it. Here are great songs that hit a little too close during these hard times - Rock/Punk/Pop edition: Nine Months - Annie DiRusso The first thing you said the night we met is I was beautiful Pot & Kettle - The Sonder Bombs I wish jokes didn’t apply to me but now they do Dang. - The Childlike Empress Oh god I fell for it again $5 Subtweet - Pool Kids You remind me of Good 4 U - Olivia Rodrigo Well, good for you, I guess you moved on really easily I don't feel bad at all for laying it all out like this. You know what does make me feel bad? The awful things I tolerated because I wanted so badly for things to work things out together. It wasn't worth it in the end. I should've seen it when-
-The person I'm seeing goes on three trips with their ex while seeing me in the beginning, stated they didn't think about my reaction to these events, lied & hid about who was going on the trip, continued to include their ex in family vacations, and expected me to proceed like we were still cool. -I developed severe anxiety after they shared they had a romantic relationship with someone they worked with who I had to see, interact with regularly and who they still wanted to be friends with. I was supposed to be okay with that. In hindsight, at this point, I didn't trust them anymore. -We visited a store where I saw something that made me exuberantly excited and was expressing that feeling. Later they told me that my authentic expressive joy nearly gave them a panic attack. -Six months into seeing me - less than two weeks after asking me to formally be their girlfriend - they post an Instagram story stating they're still heartbroken over their previous ex, and when I ask them about it, they said they forgot to block me from seeing their story. -They couldn't verbally communicate their needs to me and expected me to read their mind and body language. There is so much more, this barely scratches the surface. Even after being treated like garbage, it still sucks to lose someone you had some good memories with. Too bad all the shitty things really didn't outweigh it. It adds flavor to the situation to see so many of the sweet things I did for them be recycled and used with the new girl. Maybe things will be better for them. Here are some more sad and spicy songs getting me through it: -Traitor: Olivia Rodrigo _ "Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter It took you two weeks To go off and date her" -Drunk Voicemail: Pom Pom Squad_"You always know how to make me sad" -Hide My Face: Acid Ghost _"When you're loving somebody You are simply delighting in that person as such" -Atom: The Sonder Bombs _"Well I'm sure you have a reason for all of your rage But that doesn't mean I have to like it"
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